An anonymous man recounted his alleged drugging and sexual assault at the hands of Sean “Diddy” Combs for the first time since filing his lawsuit against the music mogul in October — and said another celebrity watched.
“The full gravity of it lives with me to this day,” the man, identified as John Doe in his suit, told CNN from his New Jersey home in an exclusive interview Tuesday. “It affects every single thing you do for the rest of your life.”
The man, a former security guard, was one of six anonymous plaintiffs who filed lawsuits against Combs on Oct. 14 but is the first to speak publicly about his experience, which he said occurred in 2007 at one of Combs’ “white parties” in East Hampton, New York.
Doe said Combs gave him two alcoholic beverages throughout the evening which, per the lawsuit, he believes were laced with ecstasy and GHB, an illegal drug that acts as a nervous system depressant and caused him to feel “extremely ill.” It felt more like having 15 drinks, he said.
“I wasn’t able to stand,” Doe recalled Tuesday.
Combs then allegedly approached Doe with what he believed at the time was “concern,” per Doe’s suit, only for Combs to shove Doe into an empty vehicle on the property and sodomize him. An unnamed celebrity “saw what was happening and found it amusing.”
“It was just an amazing level of incapacitation that I had never experienced before and I felt powerless,” Doe told CNN.
Doe noted in his lawsuit that he struggled to leave the party due to the pain and inebriation. He added Tuesday that, after telling his boss at the private security firm he worked for about this, he “was totally blacklisted” and “had to find a different field” of work.
He also told the outlet that his marriage ended as a result of the traumatic experience.
“I have a semblance of a life, a very quiet life. I would prefer what little is left of it to be left alone,” Doe told CNN about his decision to remain anonymous. “Nothing could give me back the person I was before that evening.”
Combs was arrested in September on charges including sex trafficking and sexual assault, prompting more than 120 accusers to come forward. He was denied bail for a third time last month and remains incarcerated at the Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn.
HuffPost has reached out to Doe’s attorneys for comment.
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