Police at Amman Valley school, in Ammanford, Carmarthenshire (Image: PA )
A teenage girl who stabbed a classmate and two teachers in a frenzy of violence at a secondary school told jurors she felt “guilty” about the attack.
But the youth, who was aged 13 at the time, insisted she did not want to kill any of her victims and “would give anything to go back”.
The girl, now 14, denied attempting to murder teachers Fiona Elias and Liz Hopkin, and the fellow pupil when she stabbed them with a fishing tool blade at Ysgol Dyffryn Aman school in Ammanford, Carmarthenshire, on April 24.
Launching her defence case at Swansea Crown Court, she told her barrister Caroline Rees KC how she felt “terrible” about what had happened whilst she was feeling “grumpy” after starting her period.
She said: “It doesn’t feel like I did it, to be honest. (I feel) terrible, guilty.”
The knife allegedly used by the teenager (Image: CPS)
She added: “I remember thinking to myself ‘What am I doing? What am I doing? Stop’ – but I don’t remember seeing anything.
“You can’t (look back), it’s dark, to say the least, I remember being very hot during the incident.”
The girl, who had been excluded for a week after being caught by Mrs Elias with a knife earlier in the year, told jurors how she had carried a blade almost every day since she was in “Year 3 or 4”, saying she felt “scared and worried” and used knives to self-harm.
Her father told how following the exclusion he would search her bag for knives each day but she said she hid it in her pocket and on the day of the attack her father admitted he had failed to check her bag before school.
The father also claimed his daughter had been subjected to bullying at school whilst a fellow pupil also alleged he had seen the girl she went on to stab repeatedly slap the defendant on the back of the head while on the school bus a few weeks before the incident.
Injured teacher Fiona Elias (Image: Dyfed-Powys Police)
Where the attack occurred in south Wales (Image: PA)
Earlier, the court heard from a witness that the defendant told assistant head Mrs Elias “I’m going to f****** kill you” before launching her attack, but the girl denied the accusation but conceded she had previously wanted to “punch or slap her”.
She also insisted she did not want to kill her classmate and could not remember striking her.
Asked about the moment she was restrained after stabbing the other child, she said: “I remember her saying ‘You’re a f****** psychopath’ and I remember saying ‘It’s your fault’.”
Asked by Williams Hughes KC, for the prosecution, if she wanted to kill her classmate or her teachers, she said “No”.
All three victims were treated in hospital before being discharged.
The trial continues.